Thursday, January 7, 2010

2 years

Today marks 2 years since our miscarriage.

To be honest, I am a little surprised at how much this day affects me. I thought that the hurt would ease with time....and while it has, it is still so sharp. Those of you that have experienced a loss like this know exactly what I am talking about. There will be times when all the family is together, working on something or just being together and I will look around and feel like someone is missing. This happens often.

While it still hurts, I am thankful. I am thankful for Heaven. I KNOW that when I get to Heaven I will recognize my little one right away. He or she is mine, and I will know it. I can't think of a better place for a baby to grow up than in Heaven, can you? I know that my Grandpa and Grandma who are in Heaven have been spoiling that baby rotten for the last 2 years. I am thankful.

I don't know WHY God allowed this loss....but I do know that because of it He has allowed me to more fully empathize with others. Within 6 months of our miscarriage there were 2 ladies in our church that went through the same thing. I knew their grief and the Lord allowed me to sorrow with them. I also grew closer to the Lord through it....I could FEEL Jesus' love for me. I am thankful.

Won't Heaven be amazing?!?!? Sweet reunions and wonderful fellowship. I am thankful.

I don't know what you are going through today. I don't know what sorrow you are facing, but can I encourage you to trust Jesus? I heard a quote once, "God loves you too much to be unkind, and He is too wise to make a mistake." He loves you. Whatever trial you are facing - whatever trial we have gone through - that trial has a purpose. There is a lesson to be learned in the storm. I often pray that God will help me learn the lesson quickly because I don't want to go through the trial again. Jesus loves you. He loves me. I am thankful.

A song that encouraged my heart so much:


He Already Sees
When the storm raged about them
The disciples were afraid
For the waves were high and the ship was tossed
They could not find their way
Then they awoke the master
Saying Lord please save us now
He rebuked the winds and the sea grew calm
And they all wondered how

God sees the storm from the other side
He knows the lessons learned
And just beyond the clouds He sees clear skies
He speaks peace to the raging storm when peace could not be found
He already sees the rainbow when we see only clouds

Like the man on the sea did
I have called on God in prayer
When it seemed to me all hope was gone and in my deep despair
I remembered what the Lord said when He calmed that troubled sea
And I know once more how He sees the storm
And peace floods over me

God sees the storm from the other side
He knows the lessons learned
And just beyond the clouds He sees clear skies
He speaks peace to the raging storm when peace could not be found
He already sees the rainbow when we see only clouds

And when the storms of life come crashing in and trouble me
I can feel Gods arms around me and he whispers
Let it be, Let it be

God sees the storm from the other side
He knows the lessons learned
And just beyond the clouds He sees clear skies
He speaks peace to the raging storm when peace could not be found
He already sees the rainbow when we see only clouds

(written by Dianne Wilkinson and Joseph Smith )

Isn't God good to us? I pray that you will feel His love in a special way today!

3 comments:

Carolyn said...

Debbie,

HUGE hugs to you and your family today especially. I haven't been in these shoes, but you are so right... Heaven is a wonderful place for a baby to be raised and what a wonderful reunion we will all have some day.

Thank you for sharing that song! I've been through a self-inflicted time of trouble and am having a hard time climbing out of it... because I keep forgetting that God already knows. Giving something to Him w/out taking it back is difficult. That song reminded me again to just give it to Him, He can handle it so much better than I... because He sees the other side.

I prayed for you today.

The Doll Family said...

Thank you, Carolyn!! I will be praying for you, my friend!

Mrs. Julie Fink said...

Such a sweet and special song, I will be praying for you in a special way today ♥.